Dear friend, that’s a great question.
You said, ‘You can only become a christian if GOD draws you’, which you might have got from John 6:44, ‘No one can come to me unless the Father who sent me draws him. And I will raise him up on the last day.’
To understand this, we need to look at the Biblical background of this passage. In the beginning God created us to be in a loving relationship with him. The picture in the garden of Eden was of God and humanity in a close relationship - God provided everything they needed and gave them the responsibility to look after the world. So from the start we can say that God wanted EVERYONE to be close to him (Gen 2:4-17)
But that’s not the way it is today. What happened? Well it’s not that God changed his mind. On the contrary, Adam and Eve decided that they wanted to rule the world without God. They disobeyed his instructions and were banished from the beautiful garden God had provided and the close relationship with God that He intended. Adam and Eve died spiritually that day. So it’s not that God turned his back on us, but we turned our back on Him. This is what we call sin, and this infected the hearts of everyone who has been born since Adam and Eve. The natural state of the human heart is to reject God’s rule of our lives and a close relationship with him.
So when Jesus says ‘No one can come to me unless the Father who sent me draws him’, it’s not because God doesn’t want us to be close to him. It’s because WE don’t want to be close to GOD. What we need is a radical change of heart. Only God can change our hearts, and that’s why he sent Jesus.
God sent Jesus to show the world that even though we don’t want a relationship with God, he still wants a relationship with us. Even though we deserve God’s punishment, Jesus died to save us and bring us back to God. This is what Jesus says about his death, ‘And I, when I am lifted up from the earth, will draw all people to myself’. (John 12:32) Jesus was lifted up on the cross so that ALL people would be drawn back to God. Once again we see God’s desire that all people have a relationship with Him.
So to answer your question, God is drawing all people to himself through the cross of Jesus. The verse in John 6:44 is NOT saying that even if you want to be born again you can’t unless God draws you. It’s saying that since everyone is sinful, no one wants to be a Christian without God changing his or her heart.
This is really good news for anyone who wants to be born again. Because you wouldn’t feel that way unless God IS drawing you to himself. It’s natural to want to reject God, but it’s supernatural to want to become a Christian. If you feel like you want to be born again, then you can be sure that GOD IS DRAWING YOU. Without him drawing you, you wouldn’t want to know him. So if you want to be born again, it’s because God has changed your heart. The only thing to do now is pray and thank God for drawing you to him. Accept his wonderful gift of forgiveness and eternal life, and know that you are born again through Jesus!
If you have done this, the angels in heaven are rejoicing over you because you have been born again and you are one of God’s children! Please talk to someone, even myself, so that they can help you to grow in your new life! Praise God!